You’re welcome in! I’ve seen you….In my dreams, as in life,
Echoing the velvet onyx abyss of your soulless heart
and sweetly enshrouded with the eternal stench of history’s charm.
The doors, portcullis to my chamber, lay stark wide
permitting pure precipitation to flood the ivory gateway
in readiness for your empowering presence.
I recline as the embers cool….
The oak clock clangs breaking the deftly silence of my creamy satin nest.
The sound ceases filling my body with fear and anticipation.
A desperate urge to fight the mesmeric stupor, to shut you out!
But my desire enforces paralysis and there with aching trepidation I lay.
Nubile and motionless the emerald flecks of my eyes meet your black stare,
Your gaze pierces me as you materialise from nothingness;
Tall, foreboding, pale with a mane of Earthly hair.
As you approach your cognitive grip tightens, our psyches coalesce!
I see your depravities; Death displaces desire and torture is thrust upon idolaters.
Still, I want you! That is your power.
I surrender my life to you even as your deathly, ice lips caress mine,
Unable to overcome the sense of depravity triggered by that loathsome longing,
I hesitate, in an acknowledgement of reticence your eyes.
Your stunning, seductive eyes stare into mine.
In deep swoon I am willed to relax, to fall into a waking reverie
filled with a sense of peace, beset by your refuge.
Then, in a climactic instant your canines penetrate my chastity
draining my life’s fluid and my world sinks into an obscure dusk……
Sweet sleep excludes the brilliant sun.
My only stirrings emanate from our minds merging.
Locked behind the bars of your malevolence I see victims cruelly slain,
Solely for knowing you and you watch me gazing in.
An eternal parasite cursed; Darkness, solitude and damnation.
An emptiness crying out for pity, the demon within judged for its deeds,
Fuelling its anger and passions, driving a desire that may never be sated.
My soul builds a resistance to the disease and I implore you for a reprieve
with no compassion my sanctuary is denied and once again you appear.
With a Tiger’s strength I draw myself from that lust filled place of rest.
Stumbling, dazed and weak my feet tread stone villa floors.
Even in my escape I am drawn to you.
Your whispers tremor through me as I desert on my steel stead.
Your imploring tones willing my return, fighting with memories of the beloved you stole now just us alone in a crowded universe.
Hastily I travel through the mountain pass, mere shapes silhouetted in the dark.
My mind in turmoil and my body hungering for yours
the cool night breeze pierces my skin, I lose control!
In a flash of metal and light my mortal flesh is broken like porcelain,
my skin ripped, my spirit weary bidding me to sleep through the trauma.
I feel you holding me like the lover you can never be, moving me, time passes…
You tend me with a callous cherishing,
Healing your prey to make it fit once again for the hunt!
And with gruesome degradation you feed me from your own veins
and with grotesque wantonness I submit to your offering.
Overawed by the eroticism, aphrodisia and sensuality.
Your silent, false promise that you will shield me forever.
In that moment of bliss I give myself to you!
You make the pain stop!
You satisfy your own thirst!
Frozen air sneaks through the derelict boards.
I wake in an abode that has haunted my dreams, slumped coldly on chilled steps,
The crimson warmth of days passed replaced by damp rot and sombre shade.
Solitude perforates my empyrean blood.
Loss of my kin has broken my fire,
A life once so learned, travelled and communal destroyed.
You are all I have, my vengeance quelled by an unnatural proclivity,
To be yours eternally,
To be loved and subjugated equally, but your heart does not beat!
I am here at your will, forced to choose as you wish
punished with desolation and debility,
Infected by your fluids, which dominate my clay.
Timorously I call your name and there aloof at the window crevice,
You materialise as if there you had always been,
I beg for release from your enchantment,
To forget this agonising cry from the depths of my being,
Your numb stare repudiates my appeal.
My choices are narrowed; annihilation or eternal perdition,
Everlasting surrender to your sovereignty,
Lacerated through your necessary infidelity.
An assassin afflicted with immortality’s curse
and yet with these apprehensions you still captivate me.
Unable to bear being abandoned in this weakened state I come to you.
I rise as you wish,
I stroke your dreadful shell succumbing to your carnality,
Your claws clasp my soft curls and the kiss you offer blazes.
Gnarled nails trail my throat, easing the silken slip strings from my shoulders,
ivory points encircle my lips, cheeks, hair and throat,
The puncture stings with libidinous relief ebbing with each gulp.
My senses heighten, I energise and in a moment of clarity I draw from you,
Night escapes leaving the scarlet sun dawning slowly,
Before the last trickle of humanity evades me I break away….
Away from aeons of emotional emptiness,
I throw myself at the mercy of the burning sun,
Exquisite burning relieves me of mortality and immortality,
You howl, you love, we should have been one.
With regret for what could have been I return to dust………
Kerry Baldock Kelly